a little deep, but I was recently in the hospital due to suicidal actions. I do not know how to love myself, yet I am SO full of love. I want to give love to everyone around me. I want them to feel worth it, like they ARE supposed to be here. I don’t want anyone to feel the way I do about myself. I am constantly living with the thought I do not belong on this planet. That I am ugly and nobody can ever love me. But why? Shouldn’t I be able to love myself? Love every particle and cell in my body? I’m here. I’m breathing. I get to experience life, for the short amount of time we are here. I get to see mountains, smell fresh air, witness thunder storms, experience love and joy. I get to laugh with my friends and see my family smile. I get to live on a planet where there are ANIMALS! DOGS! There are so many positives about this life, but somehow the negatives over power those.
But this is the time where I start to realize I belong here. I have a beautiful soul, that will go to no end for someone. I’m working on myself. I want people to see me as a joyful being, full of love and butterflies. I want my soul to feel lighter. I want to see myself as beautiful and I want others to see that to..
So sorry to hear about what happened! But I’m so glad you’ve decided to try and turn your life around with positivity. Good luck and keep at it!
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Thank you sooo much, that means the world! much love ❤
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